What happen to the Hippo and turtle?

I wonder what happen to the Hippo that befriended the Turtle after that tsunami?
Do you think that they are living happily out in the wilderness together or maybe they realized that their relationship could never work because they speak different languages.

So I found out the other day all about the whole smoker thing. When in doubt just ask that Bob stranger. Yup... He knows more than the common person but he is having a hard time adjusting to the Bob Time lovers celebrations.

Today I went to see that movie Hitch with Amanda aka sky in the purple car. Do people really think that real life is anything like a movie? Cause I don't. It does make me wonder why fools attend so many though. Yet again I am one of those fools.

There was some real sunshine in the world today and I saw it. I felt like a giant plant trying to absorb energy from the suns rays. I loved it.I wanted to go on a picnic by the melting snow banks but I wasn't able to because I had prior engagements.

I spent some time checking out what ink to get. I am so going to have to do that without Levi. Meh... seems I do everything alone these days. I even eat dinner alone and yet as lonely as it sounds I don't mind it near as much as I had thought that I would. If one could survive all alone on an island I think I would want to. At least for today.

This week was kind lame. I mean it took someone being a complete and total jerk to bring me down but it so worked. I hit the ground like a raw egg splattered unto the ground. Incase you haven't noticed it takes some work to put something so fragile back together again. I didn't even see it coming. I mean I would understand if I actually felt like I gave this person a reason to blame me for things that I have nothing to do with but I am just not seeing how there misery is my fault No ones misery is my own fault. If one can not make themselves happy it wouldn't be because I stole it at any point.No matter what my actions I never would intend to make someone feel as cheap as what he made me feel.It might not have ever bothered me so much if I thought for a second that I was at all to blame but I assure you I am not. I have looked at this from every angle and there is no reason in the world to treat someone as he did me except maybe he just didn't ever care about me as a person in the first place. Real friends would never dream of making up lies to hurt another.It was just an excuse and I hate that it bothers me so.

eh its too bad I am always distracted and I can not complete one good blog entry.

Petula Clark is singing down town to me on my Yahoo Radio. LOL to think that someone thought Down Town was a great time. Ah I have been down town and its not really that Great. Its kinda SCARY and The line everything waiting for you means only creepy people are waiting for you with every type of disease you can think of.

Ah I was just reminded of how bad I can be with Timing. Silly me. I started being slow at celebrating Christmas sometimes so I would celebrate on Martin Luther King Jr day well now its turned into a Christmas/Martin Luther King JR day/ Valentine thing. Whoa a little bit much all at once but meh I am up for the challenge.

another Note.. Shun Shaun sent this message which made me think maybe not everyone forgets me...well Ruth I am sorry I missed you yet again. I miss hanging out with you, we have to do it very soon, i am going to force some free time into my schedule.

Hmm.. so does anyone have any current thoughts cause you can just go ahead and mention them. Later.


Hating myself
Hating me for nothing ...
For Something ...
and for everything ..
Everything I have done ...
Everything I haven't ...
The things I am going to do ...
and the things that I won't do ...
Hating me ...
Hating what I see ...
Hating what I don't ...
Hating that I will run ...
and hating that I won't ...
Why can't anything be right ...
Why can't everything be right ...
I hate me for this night ...
and every night to come...
I realize what I have done...
and What I haven't ...
I just hate everything
everything that involves me.