phones suck

eh... I hate my phone today because its all calls asking about my Mom which I have no answers for any of the questions. I am so worried anyways that it doesn't help. Not to mention that I haven't slept well in days and my Grandma got mad at me this morning cause I told her that I wanted to sleep for another hour or so and she said something about she didn't understand how I could sleep at all. The problem is I haven't hardly slept I am exhausted and I didn't want to jump up out of my bed just to run and wait some more. Ah... it sucks so bad. Its not that I don't care and it makes me feel ten times worst when everyone else is telling me how I am to react and how I am supposed to be doing things. I do things my way because its the way I do them. If people would just understand My way isn't bad its just different then life would be so much easier but then it would be better and we can't have that can we? Anyways... My own appointment to see about my arm was held off at least until tomorrow that way we don't have to juggle even more stuff. For now I am kinda wishing I was back at work this week because then I would have more to distract me and I wouldn't sit here thinking dumb thoughts about things that either will just happen or won't. Days like today is when I feel most alone. Hopefully I will have better news for all of you later.