Everything and Nothing

Have you ever wanted everything and nothing all at once?
There are so many things that I have already that most people never get to have but yet I feel as if I have nothing to offer and I don't want anything that can't be earned. I just feel as if I am working so hard and yet not accomplishing anything.
Its frusterating... but eventually you just gotta have faith that it all pays off. Its the moments inbetween that are disturbing me.

A random hilarious story that made yours truely feel like a donkey... I went for drinks with my friend Jenny. Bad idea.lol... we were getting really good service from the waiter because he kept coming back to check up on us which is always GREAT but ... it was sad because I was busy drinking my drink when the waiter returned to ask if we needed refills and the straw stuck to my lip. So when I turned my drink splashed down the front of me and my straw went flying... yeah MY face was only 12 shades of red. Only something RUTH WOULD DO. maybe it was more of you should have been there.