Thoughts... And stuff.

So Monday started off my long week. Work was not too exciting because I was starting to come down with something. right after work I called some pals and it was set that we would all go hangout. Well Shaun, Seth, Jenny, Amanda and I all went to Target and the mall. We had some fun. I mean we decided Shaun is the most likely to break out into song anytime any where. Jenny is the most Likely to beat you in the head with a shoe at any moment. Amanda is the most likely to... ? Can't remember but I know Seth was most likely to eat our left over bread crumbs. So it made me laugh. Anyhow... We did all that and came back to my house but it was a late night and on Tuesday I had a whole day of work for myself again. Lucky Me. I ended up without any breaks in the day and I went on this trip with some rude teachers. Yeah I was lovin that. NOT! I did however get to buy a hat. I really cool hat from the buckle. I didn't really have any breaks and I got home about 6:30 er so just in time to chat with Jenny Hicks and Mike for a minute. Which was long enough for Mike to agree to go to a movie with us. Well we of course let him pick cause what the shell do we care? So .. He picked Alexander the great. Yeah let me tell you our movie theater isn't the most comfortable thing in the world to sit in for 3 hrs. Turns out Jenny couldn't make it either. It was strange cause I think mike was thinking how the shell can I escape? Meh.. Oh well and he brought me home just in time for me to take a shower and stay up late once again. So by the time Wednesday came I was really sick and I had no voice. None at all. I took the morning off from work to try to sleep. Yeah it was lame. Then I went to work in the after noon and later on that night Jenny Hicks came and Grandma took us up to GR for dinner and I bought a new coat. Well once again lack of sleep. On Thursday I was still sick and I worked all day without yet another break. Then on Friday I ended up switching drivers which was lame. So then that wasn't cool and inbetween on my break Lloyd and I went to decorate for his party. Well the party was right after I got out of work so I ended up going til late last night. It was alot of fun but I am still sick and yeah I don't think its cool at all. Anyhow .. I have alot to say but I must rest. Here are some more thoughts. and I will catch you all later!~Ruth

I remember only you I can smell you from acrossed the room The way your hair fell towards your face then you would brush it back into place I can feel when you look my direction I always miss your affection I wonder all the time I think its causing me to lose my mind. I tell people I am just fine when really I think all I can do is pine.

Like a razor blade you can be harmless and useful Or the most deadly and hateful thing ever seen.I guess this is why so many nights I have cried and wondered why haven't I died? You try to kill me .... but your blade isn't always penetrating.It is to my heart though. I am broken and for that I give you a token.I am not always so soft spoken but I have never sliced away your insides like you have mine. I have never decided you were ever unworthy of the finer things in life like you have decided about me. I also have never once said that I wouldn't love you til the end of time like you have just now told me. I will keep loving you even after you have mangled my insides, and tangled me in all your lies. This is how much I love you and all I ask is that you try.