Laugh at the People in the theater.

Today was a very eventful day just having to guide the little one around. I didn't accomplish much by myself because Breanna was here and of course I was the one in charge. Maybe it was the other way around? Who can really say for sure. Currently though my Grandmother is ill and yet again Breanna is staying another night. Kids... meh!

My roses from Valentines day died. Which I guess they couldn't live forever but I really don't think they lived long at all.

I spent sometime coloring today. I drew a black rose with a red outline it looks pretty darn spiffy. If only my scanner was connected. I wanted to make an awesome back ground but I am torn between Blue rain drops or Red. It will be cool once its all the way finished.

The picture I just posted was one I found when I was stammering on the web.I thought it looked cool.

I am sitting here at my computer feeling so foolish. I have taken it upon myself to change a few relationships with some of my closest friends.Its the hardest thing to know that if any of them are hurt it is my fault.This doesn't apply to a ton of my friends but enough that I have to say something. I am only putting the distance between us for now because I can't always be the one getting hurt for such childish actions. I feel guilty for being me. Which no one should ever have to feel like they are not enough. I know that most of my friends do not understand why I am feeling the way I do ... but have some faith in me that I know what I am doing. I know how much it sucks and I know that you think I am giving in to other people but really I am just giving in to me. I want more than anything for me to be able to be okay with me. I don't wanna be awake at night wondering why someone would ever say horrible things from such innocent things... I want to know that when I do something its not going to offend others. Its not something that came up suddenly actually. I have so much past building up that its all falling apart. When people forget to tell you your strengths and only mention your weaknesses because they assume you already know all that you are... you think you are only your weaknesses. I had to mention my thoughts on this because I don't think you realize how much you guys mean to me.

Eh .. anyhow .. moving on .. I am supposed to go see some new movies this week but I am not sure which ones are good. If anyone has a thought on what is good and what is lame... let me know? I don't wanna pay for a bad movie unless I can laugh at the people in the theater. :)

I am currently listening to the song Leader of the pack.. ah the great memories with Cassi and Jenny. We went out to a lake and we cruised around forever in her dads awesome black blazer and we sang along to this song and she kept trying to talk me into asking Erik out. Ha ha! Then it seems we listened to this song often cause .. we almost talked Tammi into singing it with us for some school show thing. Lol! Ah those were the days.