Christmas thoughts and such.

She walks to a bench all alone. With all the fears she has ever known. With only a souvenir in her hands for its all that remains to call her own. She had things money could not buy no matter how hard you tried. She pauses for a moment before knocking on a door her heart sinks fast like its going to the floor. On a step she finds herself weak for she has no voice left to speak. All she can do is weep for the one she loved most was last seen lying at her feet. The air is still reminding her life is passing her by. She thought if only she could fly go so high and touch that beautiful sky. She knows he would be there waiting for her. When is it going to be her turn? The many nights she lies awake restless in the dark with only a pillow to hold close to her heart. Few moments when she does find rest its because some how he finds a way to still have a presence there even in worlds apart.
-As you have Christmas cheer just remember there are some with many tears. For they are facing their biggest fear. They lost someone who was oh so dear. So honor our boys fighting for our Freedom.
So I have been keeping busy and also Bob aka the computer is being difficult sometimes. Monday was an okay day but no one wanted to come out and play. Tuesday was great even though I worked all day then spent all my money like a fool. LOL I went to the mall and shopped all alone. It was lame shopping alone but anyhow... I bought some cool gifts. Really cool. Last night was a lot of fun because Tony and I went to the choir concert and we saw charity and Shaun Bowe there. We laughed some. Bowe says: i like your hair you look good...outrunrain: ay so you think the way I grow my hair now is great huh ?Bowe says: heh outrunrain: I like growing it different LOL outrunrain: THANKS Bowe says: i dunno i just thought u looked pretty i hadnt seen u in a while. Then Tony and I left to go see Deb aka The Jesus Mother. Ha ha. We just hungout until late always tires to give me one of everything she has and I feel bad for not always taking her stuff but ah if I do get a drink or something then I feel bad if I don't chug it down right away either.. Its a no win situation. LOL. Poor me. Looks like I will have to drink a lot. I got an email from Christian so that's awesome!! My best email pal. Yahoo! I thought maybe I had lost him but he could never lose me or so that is what I have been told. After that my night didn't turn out so well which as a result I had a horrible morning. I mean you ever just get the feeling someone is standing over you? Well that happen to me and it just so happen they were. EVEN WORST. I couldn't understand why the shell anyone would do that. They figure he was sleep walking but... I was like that's not normal. I woke up scared to death and I couldn't get him to talk to me at all. Talk about not the coolest thing ever. I was so scared. I didn't know what to do finally he just left on his own and I shut and locked my door. So that was about 2 am and I didn't go to bed til 12 anyways... So I mean I only slept a tiny bit and I had to go to work at 5. So that wasn't cool at all. I was so freaked out. I still am too. Freakin ay... Not cool. Anyhow without any sleep at all then working it was a hard day. Tonight Shannon, Tony, Jenny Hicks, Danny and I are all supposed to go to the movie and we tried to invite Mike ... But we don't know? We will see how it turns out and I am pretty sure my room will be locked tonight because I was scared to death. Otherwise... Nothing too much new going on here. I will catch you people sometime later. Love~Ruth