A cashie with great eyebrows!?!

Well hello there pals. So the deal now is that I have officially just DORK STAMPED MYSELF! After the weekend I've had ... I just better laugh rather than cry!
Friday night I worked for Mardi Gras out at the bar. Wow... what a crowd. I was so glad to look up and see alot of my adorable friends there but ... It was kinda bitter sweet because I wanted to be right next to em yelling and screaming instead I was the one getting yelled at all night. Which I think I took it like any other person without a back bone would have so props to me for letting my manager stomp all over me! Anyways ... Jason Jones came out and played. I don't really know Jason Jones but I do know he was really nice looking and I never once got the chance to talk to him this weekend. Meh.. thats life though. After that I was supposed to hangout with my Brother, Aaron and Dick at Steak N shake. Turns out they left before I got up there and I was really heart broken. I mean they promised me some fun and what the heck they bailed before I was done working. Its okay though they are my homies I forgive them also.

Saturday night aka Last night was pure MAD CRAZYNESS! I have no idea what the world I was thinking .... okay maybe I do know what I was thinking but I don't know why I am so foolish sometimes. I went out to the bar to cheer my pal Jenny up because she was stuck working again last night. So I was just out there making trouble I suppose. It was so funny. I have no idea why but some guy that Adrienne knew walked up and was completely drunk so he was already hilarious. So I tell him I a looking for a table and somehow I talk him into letting me steal a table from other people and he would take the blame. Yeah CHEERS TO ME... I so did that. We walked up to a table which was covered with coats and stuff which was not being used at the time. Then I gathered up about 4 guys to sit with Adrienne and I just to make it look like we didn't take the table. Yeah some guy comes back and sits accrossed from me and just glares at us. So I smile and he pretends not to notice. I was just trying to be nice cause I was gonna have his table weather he liked it or not. lol. So yeah I was like okay awkward. Then the first Drunk friend of Adrienne's gets so loud and starts telling the stranger that we didn't know him and why would we invite him to sit with us. So the stranger gets upset and is like there are empty tables over there. So believing him I was like alright boys lets go. So I take all these guys. Just one that I know and I know he is trouble and three that I don't have a clue about to a new table which clearly once again belonged to someone else. Well I lost Adrienne's drunk Friend along the way. I am not at all sure why he couldn't find us but he was so funny trying and I just sat down and laughed about it all. Eventually our bouncers escorted him out. Which was better for him.
Anyways Adrienne and I stole a second table with 3 drunk guys. So we sat down and the hostle drunk guy spilled his drink all over his lap. So I laughed and he was yelling but meh... didn't phase me. Then we just all hungout. The guy I knew was Jeff. Which he has been my brother Lloyds friend since like 2nd grade so of course I know who this guys is even though he just recently learned who I was. YIKES! It turned out so different than what I pictured ever!!

Ah ... The slow songs come on and theres one drunk asking adrienne to dance and then there is Jeff asking me to dance. We were out there having some fun but ... man I am such a bad tramp dancer. Lol I guess I like to WALTZ er something. I don't know. Then Jeff starts asking what I do for fun because he knows where I am working all and thats all he knows about me. So I told him that is life. Yeah then he is all telling me where he lives and stuff so I just say yeah I know where that is. Turns into him saying I'd never go have fun with him. ah .. I hate a challenge or someone pre-judging me I guess you'd say. So just know that at the end of the night ...
There I was Adriennes car.... Jeff and two other drunks in the backseat wearing our batman masks.

The rest of the night was too crazy... but in the end I was in a meijer buying lemons and Limes and Jeff was running up and saying You have the best eyebrows. Then I was surprised because he kept saying how beautiful my hair and eyes were so I was laughing and he asks the cashier if she likes my eyebrows. So what the shell?? It was just stupid!
I was out til 6am and worked at 10am yeah ... What a day. I was only 30 cents off on my cashier drawer. Which isn't bad. I also found out that I got 100% on my secret shopper. SWEETNESS!
Anyways ... so then Jeff stopped by this morning like he said he would but I didn't believe.
It was great though I looked up and there was a sign posted to everyone about how donuts were on special it was supposed to reaad attention all cashiers but instead it was attention all Cashies. So my grandma and I were laughing about it because we keep getting hours cut so I said it was cause we were demoted to cashies.

So the deal with my job at the bar that makes me so upset lately is no matter what people are yelling at me. What the freakin ay man? why the heck would you yell at people who are willing to learn? This is what erks me most you don't treat people who are working there butt off for you like they don't matter. JUST FYI FOLKS before you start talking down to people be aware WITHOUT THE LITTLE PEOPLE YOU WOULD NEVER GET THE BIG PeOPLE! Thats a fact because MOST OFTEN THE LITTLE PEOPLE are doing all the dirty work!! So screw the people who can't respect other people! -Ruth

Something I've accomplished kind of....

Ah so this is my reflective time. I've been a bit busy again.
I went on a choir retreat thing or something I don't really know
I was locked in a hotel for two days and one night. Yup and it
Was an exciting time. I had a few moments of thinking what did
You just get yourself into. Then my fear subsided and I was okay.
I have however lost my voice and now its all distorted and bad
sounding.
Currently while I type I am listening to the movie
TOMBSTONE how can you not love that movie. "I'm Your HUCKELBERRY"

So on Friday morning I woke up to the sound of the news on the
Television. I haven't been able to really sit down and watch the news
for a really long time. Not because I am too busy but because I
hate what I find out on the news. The day I stopped watching was 10-23-05
Why you ask? cause thats the morning I woke up to find that my
childhood friend Blue Lawson was in a horrible car accident.
Ah ... So Friday morning I woke up and finally watched some news.
It wasn't too exciting but I just think avoiding it doesn't make things
any easier. Just makes you more afraid to do stuff so ... I finally
decided its foolish to let something like that bring me down.

My week and my weekend has been kinda long. I am really rested up but still tired so I think I am going to find myself back in my cozy comfy little bed. WHICH BTW IS CLEAN!! Yeah because when I went away this weekend I got in the hotel room and I was all comy and cozy I thought until something kept scratching my arm up. Yeah the blanket had some crusty sick stain on it and I had to trade it in for a matress pad and two sheets. PRETTY DISTURBING!!!

So I will get back to you folks I promise!

What is IT?

Okay so I am just on my way to work but I had to stop in and get some food to survive you know. So I am like hmmm... Popcorn Chicken Delicious. Whats the deal I read the box and it says made with RIB FRITTERS? What am I am eating CHICKEN or something else. I don't even know. Why am I such a stupid american. For crying out loud someone tell me what it is!!

Sometimes I just get bitter

Today I am feeling rather SICK! As in I cought some something some place which is turning me into a really ugly beast!

So lets see I worked a lot of hours yesterday. I went to work at like 6:30am like always for the school and did my thing there. Which I followed that up with a quick stop for FOOD with everyone. I think its strange how life can revolve around food even when we are least aware of it. Something so simple gives me life. After that I had to rush home just in time to do a few things before going to lunch too. I went with Tony aka That good old moo! I haven't seen him in a really long time so we had some laughs together. I don't know why but we are really good at getting together just to complain about things. It was really fun though. We are going to keep sporks from everytime we go places together now.
YES WE ARE THAT LAME!!

I went back to the school and worked til 4 and when I got done with that I rushed just in time to the store to work from 4:15 - 7pm which btw was really not a bad night. I laughed and met a lot of new exciting people.

7:30-3am I was working at the good ol' Bar again. I really enjoy working there even if it really seems like everyone else a jerk to me. I guess I like the hate.

Ha.... I was so excited my co-worker Andy stopped into the store last night just to chat I guess. He cracks me up and I make him blush. Ha ha ... anyways he was yelling at me because I didn't go to tecquilla night at the bar on Wednesday cause I was too busy falling down in concerts. So yeah I actually might be getting him to buy his wife a singing gram thing from My chorus!! Yup thats right cause who can refuse to spend money when a nice girl like me asks. ;P

This morning I caught a peek at the whole floral shop we have prepairing for Valentines day. I really love the holiday but then ... Every year I get so excited thinking maybe this year I won't be forgotten and everytime I am ... Lol its really rather sad. So I am looking forward to the day when I am 42 just married with tripplets on the way. Then I won't have to worry about if someone forgot me or not.

Lately I am really missing some of my old pals. I barely get to see alot of them and I just think so many of them are hard to find. I know they always say whenever you wanna hangout or talk just call me but sometimes when its been so long people think what the heck you calling me NOW for? and then you just get this horrible feeling of man .... We drifted apart. Which happens to alot of people but the thing is when they want to call me it seems they don't ever hesitate. I just don't understand why I am always the one they call to cry to but when I wanna have someone just to at least laugh with they don't have time. I mean I think I do a really good job of making time considering everything that I have to do. I just feel foolish being so caring and forgotten so often.

Tonight I am supposed to go with Barbie and hangout for a little while which will be some fun but ... I feel like A RABID WHORE WITH ACID!!!
I think its just a cold but then again I am not a doctor.

Ha ... What a foolish girl

So last night I thought I would be so cool going to see a concert. I got my new sneakers on and I had my awesome black jacket with black ribbion and lace. I was just plain being awesome. Ha it only lasted about five minutes. I was in a rush to get from my house to Grand Rapids so I came back in the house for something and fell just in time to scrape my knee like an idiot. Yeah so then I was like ah I will survive but thats a moron thing to do.
We get to Grand Rapids just in time for my Grandmother to call and ask if I will pick up her contacts which took like a half an hour cause the man didn't know where they were.
My friend Fievel became upset with me for joking about how her shirt made her look like a father from church or something so then she feels the need to finally tell me that my fly is down. Yeah talk about put your foot in your mouth. I wore my "CHEEKy" brightly colored undergarments that everyone could see. Which I am unaware of how long they could have been looking. All day for all I know.
After that we were about on time to when the doors were supposed to be opening. Well at 7 o'clock we were still in line. It was so COLD!! I guess we are all a bunch of idiots cause we all waited there and almost froze to death. I mean it was bitter out. My hands turned funny colors and hurt like there was no tomorrow. So yeah eventually we got in the doors. Well I guess my friend Fievel had to use the rest room so off we strolled. Ha... there was a ledge luckily it was a bit crowded and when I stumbled I caught my grip on someones shoulder. Y eah that time I did. ha ha ... I ended up finding Mike and his sister I think Julie up there and we all hungout for a bit. well the Mosh Pits started and they booked like there was no tomorrow but there I was with Fievel in them. Yikes again!! So eventually to cut the story more short some guy who I thought was watching my pal fievel came up and used the "HOW YOU DOIN?" Line from friends. I am sorry but I find this extremely hilarious. I didn't know people actually attempt that stuff. (GIGGLE GIGGLE)
Yeah ... The proudest moment of the night is when I was all cool dancing and singing my songs and BAM!!! Right there I did the splits. Like just one foot went one way and the other the oppisite way. Ah ... There I was trying to catch myself so I grab fievels arm and she freaks out and jumps back which made me fall worst. Mike was laughing at me cause he saw the whole thing from behind and eventually after I sat there pretty much mortified Mike picked me up off the ground.
Ha... So yeah what a idiot. I would hate to see me drunk. I can't even walk sober. For CRYING out LOUD!!
ha my take on the concert though.... Let me tell you CKY is worth whatever they want me to pay but ... Avenged sevenfold kinda was the main event and I wasn't too impressed. I was really kinda sad. They started late first off and never said why except the band was running late. So then the opening acts came out and played then a long pause and CKY came out. Made fun of the crowd and called it a night after not too many songs. Well I figured well Avenged Sevenfold will make it up to us. Nope ... We waited forever I swear before they came out to the stage where the crowd practically had to beg them to play anything which was just uncalled for if you ask me. When you pay any money to see a band you expect that they will be willing to give you your moneys worth. Even though I love the music I don't have to agree with the actions of the band. So ... meh nothing special. I'd go see Lost City angels any day over them!!
alright so last night this seemed a lot more laugh worthy... Tonight I just feel as if I am too exhausted to make it funny from my point of view... So sorry guys ... its all this work I am doing and I manage with little sleep. So be proud I wrote at all.;)-Ruth

Ha ... SOMETHING REAL...

Hey Readers... All One of you.
Ha... This better be good enough for now because I am dead tired and going to work bright and early. Well you want something real but I am not sure how real I am these days.
What can I say? Things are adding up but I am not the one with any answers as always.

First off my life is mostly boring with Work. Yes thats right did I mention it once again?? Thats like 3492432 times that I have brought it up lately. Its only because when you put in way more than 40 hours a week and try to have a social life all you end up with is Dark Circles under your eyes, people telling you hey your not fun anymore and no money with all this physical labor. What the shell? I guess Work isn't the Top Priority of many Americans but it is for this one!! I have not been getting much if any sleep lately and the last thing a person loves to hear all the time is GEE YOU LOOK TIRED!! Everytime I hear that it makes me want to just go all ape on people and poke out their eyes. Then say gee you look blind.
Work is harsh sometimes. It seems I have been getting yelled at alot lately. I mean I haven't a clue sometimes that I am doing things wrong and I don't mind my bosses telling me and saying hey this is the correct way of doing things which ... only makes you better. Instead I just get talked down to a rather large amount of times lately and it makes me bitter. I am going to admit I am not happy when that happens. I just feel like I am stuck in a bubble of negative people who really could care less if you are someone who like to be respected. Its just how society works now I guess. Look here theres someone making less money than me they must not know as much as what I do so... Its my job to inform them that they are less. Well guess what buddy what goes around comes around and if you think I am giving up that easily on it you can just roll over and die cause its not going to happen like that.

So did I mention that Choir I joined. Its mad crazyness hanging out with those older women sometimes. YIKES why do older women always have to pretend they like you until you say something that they don't like then there is no forgiveness. I mean for crying out loud just because you don't wear fake eyelashes and draw on your eyebrows it doesn't make you any less of a great show choir people than the rest of them... For real though this choir is one of the TOP NOTCH DEALS and any moment I am waiting for something to happen where I mess it up and become unable to preform with them. They are like my too good to be true deal. I just can't believe that they wanted little ol' me. I am so honored though.

In one day I can have a million things to do and finish them all and still go to bed and feel unaccomplished. I have no want to continue these patterns in the morning but because I am used to it I continue my misery. Don't take it the wrong way. I know how to make things fun and I know how to make more things happen but I am just still not satisfied with all the results currently.

I am surrounded by a bunch of people but yet I am standing all alone. Its always the same. I am the one who is always there for everyone else but ... where are the people for me?? Its lonely no matter how many times you repeat the same days. Its still lonely when you wake up,sleep, work and play. It doesn't matter sometimes if you are in a room full of all sorts of people. The only one in the middle is still ME! On certain days I love to be standing all alone in a big empty room just by myself. Most often these days though I wish I was off to the side casually mixing with the other people and just had a few people to crowd around me and include me.
I think I deserve much more than what I have already. I am hoping to change so much one day but I am always afraid ... Here I will be repeating the same mistakes twice and just not learning enough to grow into something wonderful.

Well this isn't too many ramblings... but enough to where I am LEAVING. Have a great night.-Ruth

FLIPPIN AY AND ITS FREEZING COLD IN HERE THAT SNOW IS JUST UNCALLED FOR!!

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